Brickwalled

Whatup! Whatup!

First off, my dorm's internet connection has been nothing short of being crap. I'm hecka slow and it won't cooperate with me at times. So therefore, my blog challenge has been hindered and stopped. I've lost count as to how many blog entries are needed.

So what's good? I dunno. I've been going through a lot lately. Some have been good, some have been bad. Good times, bad times. It's a been a mix of emotions and somehow, I get lost in it.

Innersoul. Songs Forever was a good show, but the politics and the drama were too much to bear. I couldn't believe that my "last" concert with the group would suck balls. I barely had any parts on the show and I was envious of my friends who were on stage doing their thing. I wanted to enjoy myself, but I couldn't hide the depression, anger, envy and sadness in my face. No matter how hard I tried. I just couldn't. I guess I just have to keep moving forward. It's my last year with the group, might as well enjoy as much as I can.

Legends. We're killing in the EM Cup, and we're hungry for the CA Cup Championship. The teams going great. Everyone's in sync and the team plays well and wins. I hope we get the gold this time. Jay, Dejun, Justin and myself have been hungry for a championship. We've been denied a lot of times and we're not gonna let these opportunities pass by. Plus, I'm retiring my jersey soon. Nearing graduation, it's time I hang my jersey on the rafters of my room (I don't have one by the way. Hahaha.). I'll have my last few games with the team and I'm going all out to win.

School. Thesis has been killing me. Two weeks left 'till the deadline. It's a mad rush to finish the system before the fourth of December. I've been hitting brick walls and I keep trying to find my way around/through them. I'm tired, I'm exhausted, but I have to keep going. I'm very close to reaching the epitome of my academic life, my graduation. Thesis is just a test that I need to get through. Feet, don't fail me now.

Threshold. The party was sick. I rocked the stage as much as I could, so I could release the tension, stress, frustration and anger of what happened/is happening in the past few. Songs and Thesis aren't really going well, and the stage was sorta like my outlet. But sadly, alcohol might have gotten the best of me. I was tipsy, but I was aware of what was going on. I'll do my best not to let that happen again.

My relationship with Love. It's been hard, but I always see the light of day. We get through no matter how hard or how bad we fight. I love her and she loves me. Its all that matters. That's enough for us to get through our toughest fights and arguments. Sure, I hurt her, but I always feel bad and be sincere when I apologize. I need her in my life, because she's an integral part of it and to let her go would just devastate me.

Lots going on lately. Activities, work, games, love. Just a lot in such a short amount of time. Time flies when a lot of things happen for you. All you have to do is catch up. Don't let it leave you in the dust.

-BeatBoxMachine